This is for friend comments! No advertisements here! Look to entry below if that's what you're after! :] ______________________________________________________ 12.5.09 - Hello, xanga. I've been away for a while. I guess a lot has been going on these past few months. I guess I'm growing in knowlege and accomplishments. I guess I'm sure of myself. Luke 6:21, "Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh." Since when did writing become so blocked for me sometimes? I hate having to be in the mood for it. Where has my passion gone, why can't I find it? 2nd John 1:8, "Watch out that you do not lose what you have worked for, but that you may be rewarded fully." Why do I enjoy photography so much? Since when did colors, composition, and the mood captured in a snapshot of life become so captivating? When can I develop that talent? 1st Corinthians 10:31, "So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God." Why do I volunteer so much? Why does it help to define me? Mark 10:45, Matthew 20:16, " For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His Life as a Ransom for many. 'So the last will be first, and the first will be last.'" Why is God so close to me yet why do I not always feel His presence? When did faith become so complicated? Why is it so soothing for me? Why am I so firm in my believes, but am easily challenged to think about them even deeper? Psalms 34:18; Joshua 1:5, "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you." Why is my family the insane loud bunch of people they are? Why do I want nothing to do with them sometimes? Why can I not express my love for them? What's stopping me? James 1:19, "My dear brothers [in Christ], take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry. Why are my friends such an important part of my life? Why did He make them with me in mind? Why do they want to comfort me? Why do they care? Why can't I receive it fully? Proverbs 17:17, "A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." Why has He shown me a glimpse of what He wants me to do? Why should I go into ministry? What makes me so blessed? Why do I not have money for college? Why do I just let things happen? Why do I concern myself with learning to drive and finding a job so much? Matthew 6:34, "Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Why can I not define myself? Why do I not know who I am? Why do I know me generally, but not fully? Am I not myself? 1st Corinthians 6:17, "But he who unites himself with the Lord is one with Him in Spirit." | 
